I didn't plan on posting...or blogging tonight.
Heck, I haven't even washed or styled my hair for 3 days...why would I have time to browse pinterest or form thoughts important enough to write down?!?
Did I mention I have the worst sinus infection/chest cold in the free world???
Add that to the ever growing list of things that are wrong with me and it was crisis mode at my house the last few days.
Tuesday night my mom arrived and saved me.
She brought homemade chicken noodle soup...and took my child far away where I wouldn't have to pretend to "enjoy" fighting with light sabers, cut his peanut butter jelly sandwhich into a pumpkin shape with a cookie cutter, fill 6-8 sippies of milk a day and heaven forbid: think of something to cook for dinner.
A moment ago I scrolled back through my blog and noticed a post from only about 1 MONTH ago. I said something along the lines of: My goals for Fall are to...
1-take evening walks with my boys
2-make a homemade dinner instead of hitting bajio everynight:)
3- Give Jaxson a bedtime!
THAT was honestly one of the funniest things I've read in FOREVER!!!
I have been so sick and stressed and overwhelmed that I haven't thought ANYTHING was funny in a while. (except yesterday's episode of Modern Family of course:) and that list of goals, although admirable, was PRETTY DARN HILARIOUS.
When I compared my "GOALS" to the "REALITY" of the last month...I laughed hysterically. It's a good thing...because I could have really felt like a failure, but I'm too tired to cry.
1- I haven't "walked" or exercised in an entire month. Unless you count taking laundy upstairs AND I mostly pile it on the stairs and make Jaxson do it.
2- We HAVE eaten at Bajio 4 out of the last 6 nights (including tonight). I almost understand spanish...and they don't even need to ask what I want anymore. By the way, the other 2 nights my mother drove to layton and cooked my family dinner while I about died.
3- Jaxson doesn't have a bedtime and I need to accept that he never will. I have this wierdo idea that "good mothers" enforce bedtimes. Therefore, I inflict a great deal of guilt on myself when it's 11:00 p.m. and Jaxson is still watching netflix. Why do I care?? I haven't gotten in trouble for it in 4.5 years...and I probably won't. Also, the odds of me losing at "worlds greatest mother" are pretty good and he still loves me. I've got to let this dream/goal go I think:)
Life is hard right now!
I'm not accomplishing as much as I'd like to right now!
I am REALLY leaning on my friends, neighbors and family right now!
I am probably stressing my husband out right now!
and it's ok.
Cuz, nobody's perfect.
...and as my bestest friend Rachel said to me during my "free" therapy session today on her couch
"this too shall pass"
I can't wait til it does....
I have big plans.
AND A GIGANTIC LIST OF people to Thank and Serve and Make it up to:)