I am sick and totally devastated right now. I can barely wipe myself up off the floor to write this. I feel like I will never stop crying and like I'm going to throw up all at the same time! While blog hopping at 1 am....like usual, I ran acrossed a blog for darling little Charlie Cooper. A perfectly happy and grinning little boy....EXACTLY like mine. Maybe that is exactly why this is effecting me so badly? I feel like I'm looking at my little jaxson when I see his pictures.
I have spent the past hour reading his blog...and feeling the worst pain imaginable for his sweet mom. She is a strong woman...and will be so richly blessed for handling such a trial so beautifully. I guess her little Charlie had a simple ear infection. EAR INFECTION PEOPLE!!! She took him to an instacare because he was throwing up in the night...was told to give him pedialyte and was sent home. She went back...same answer...was sent home again. Like a good attentive mother...she went back a third time....only this time he ended up in ICU at primary children's hospital with bacterial meningitis. As I scrolled through the countless pictures of her baby boy (so close in age to mine) connected to handfuls of tubes and wires....I just bawled. He is so sweet..and helpless and in pain! OH MY GOSH....it is the saddest thing I have ever seen. I want to go get jaxson out of bed right now and kiss the crap out of him and hold him all night long.
This poor little boy will never be the same. After reading I learned that he is still in the hospital after 3 months...and is in horrible pain, suffering seizures...and is now blind, partially deaf, and severely brain damaged. Can you imagine, you mothers out there? An ear infection!!! Jaxson got one last week...his first one...and I was scared. Can you imagine your perfect child getting an ear infection and only a few hours later....you will never see that personlity again? He was just learning to crawl...and you can see how fun and lively he was in his little mischevious smile! This woman is the strongest person I have ever seen....and little Charlie will be in my Prayers every single night.
I take too much for granted. How pathetic do I feel right now? I am spending every single minute with my baby tomorrow...life goes by too quickly....and you never know how much things can change in a matter of a few hours....or days.
Good luck Charlie. I'll pray for you.