I have been on some really wierd kicks lately. I don't know if it's the depression of it being "January" or what? January has to be my LEAST favorite month of the year. I HATE IT. I always feel sad that the holidays are over and "in search" of something to look forward to. I always feel annoyed that it's too cold to be outside...but stressed that it will soon get warm enough to feel wierd wearing a sweatshirt to cover up my newly added winter "flab". I always feel the pressure to set all these goals...start exercising again...blah, blah blah. January is so not fun.
---I have also been doing things completely out of the ordinary for me. Like reading?!? A TON. For those of you who have read my "crazy things" down the side of my blog...you will know that I HATE anything that is fictional or make-believe. I can't even watch movies that could never "really happen". I'm odd...I know. BUT....I started the Twilight series and I AM HOOKED. I was not so convinced as I read the first one....even calling my friend Brittany in the middle and saying "Oh please? are you kidding me! Vampires....he wants to eat her!...this is ridiculous!" But now....holy crap, I cannot put them down. These books are like 600 pages each and I started the second one on Sunday evening about 10:00 p.m. I finished it this morning. One day people...one day it took me to read it...and I have a demanding infant on my hands! Granted I stayed up until 3:30 a.m. frantically reading.....but it is so good. I'm sure a lot of you totally agree. Embarrassing as it is to admit...it totally makes me want to kiss/attack my husband! ha ha ha ha. I swear....I will read a chapter and then look over at him (silently begging him to cuddle me or kiss me or just do something..... ANTYHING ROMANTIC like Edward....he is getting so annoyed:) hee hee. Anyhow...the reason I am stuck blogging this evening is because I finished it too quickly and I have yet to borrow the third one...I'll keep you posted!
---I am also anxious and in constant grueling anticipation of graduation. Help me! It is like a huge fat X on my calendar that marks a day which will cause my life to change immensely! Kind of like when I bought a day planner last year...turned to March 28th and casually wrote "DUE DATE:)" like it was just another appointment to keep. I wish I could just relax and enjoy my last few months here....but it seems like everything I do is just leading to the "last time" I will be here...or do this...or see that! aaaagghh. I could scream. I don't necessarily Hate change....especially a change like my husband graduating from law school and getting a real grown-up-person job. BUT....a Life Change like picking up my entire life as I know it...best friends...ward...church calling...teaching job....students....colleagues....Von Maur...Pottery barn kids a few block away...Vala's Pumpkin patch...and just driving away like it never happened. Unimaginable. Actually I did that when I moved here...and it was hard. That is a change that could cause similar symptoms as the stomach flu for probably a month I'm guessing:) I am scared to death!!! How long will we live at my parents? Out of a suitcase...with every belonging in a storage bay? Where will we live? Are we going to rent, buy, or build a home? How in the world am I going to survive NOT having a job for the first time in my entire life???? That is soooooo not like me. This change is just laying in wait.....and it's all I think about. For heavens sake...I had a break down last night and yelled at Jarom about renting a U-haul. This is not until May 10th people....and my brain starts panicking like it has to be all figured out TODAY! Anybody know the name of an over-the-counter drug that could cure "CHANGE OF ENTIRE LIFE ANXIETY?!?"
---So, of course, I think of things to keep me busy. One crazy thing about me (again, if you've read the side comments you already know) is I LOVE holidays...so that is always a positive thing to keep me occupied. January is lame...but February...now that means Valentines Day and another holiday to get wrapped up in. I just love it. I, of course, couldn't wait clear until the 14th for a reason to have a "themed" get together....so Superbowl 2008 is at my house this year. Football printed napkins, plates, bowls, a Humongous football shaped chip bowl and all. I even found this cute tablecloth that looks like a football field. Does anybody else love holidays? Or maybe just things to celebrate? Nothing is better that getting together with big groups of friends or family to celebrate something... I thoroughly enjoy it:) Maybe it's just the decorating....or wandering the isles at Target looking for the supplies. I'm always for a party! Who knows....I'm a nerd as the title says.